Monday, July 26, 2010


I am trying to become a better blogger, because I do realize that my posts are full of boring, useless crap.  To help with this, I am reading articles about blogging.

One article says I should write about my obsessions.  What am I obsessed with?
  1. Goth culture
  2. Lolitas and dolls
  3. Japanese stuff
  4. Books
  5. The Cramps
  6. Fashion/ DIY culture/ Sewing
  7. Psychology
  8. Aliens, ghosts, supernatural stuff
  9. Six Feet Under, and death in general I guess
There's some things for me to think about! 

Too many random pics?

Sunday, July 25, 2010

Creepy Dolls

Creepy dolls are all gothy and horror-film.  They remind me of the old dolls my gramma had in a glass case.  I always wonder why I like stuff like this...

Pixxxie Pie and Posie on Etsy has made some awesome doll head soap.  I want my bathroom to look like a haunted house.
Unfortunately for me, this shirt is already sold.  It's by Vintage Lucy's.  She has some other doll t-shirts, but those ones are cutesy not creepy.

This is not really a doll, it's a statue.  And if I wasn't worried about paying last month's rent I would add it to my collection of toys and knicknacks.  It's from The Lovelys' shop, which is full of cool junk that also reminds me of my gramma.

WHOA!  Doll accessories!  Winter Moon Jewelry

Andddddddddddd...... the BEST creepy doll seller on Etsy!  Creepy Dolls!!!!!

Monday, July 19, 2010

Job Search Update

This job search thing has become hardcore!  I'm about to graduate college, and I realized I need to find an actual career--not just some job that would make me hate my life.  Like all the other jobs I've had...  I've had to really take a hard look at myself and ask some serious questions.  What am I good at?  What do I like doing?  What do I feel drawn to?  Because it's not just "fashion" guys.  The answer has to be much more specific than that.

For years, there has been a personal battle in my head: fashion or psychology?  My two passions.  I love being creative and I love helping people.  I'm still looking for some way to combine the two, even though that sounds pretty unrealistic.  I'm the Queen of Unrealistic--after all, I live in Lalaland.

I've discovered some wonderful sites to help me in my job search.  If you're doing it right now too, forget Craigslist and Monster!  (I don't know, that may seem obvious to most people.  I can be a little slow.)  Career Infonet and O*Net Online have been incredible helps to me.  They list hundreds of careers, tell you what they are, what you do on the job, what kind of person would like the job, what education/training you need, how much you can make...tons of info.  If you live in California (my actual, physical location on this plane of existence), you can go to the CalJOBS website for job listings and help applying.

Right now I'm interested in becoming a social worker (among several other things), and I'm trying to figure out what job I can get with only a bachelor's in psychology.  Slim pickings, but I'm the kind of person who does what they want no matter what anyone says.  I'm trying to figure out how I can get an apprenticeship or something, and where to apply.  I should also look at becoming a costumer or personal stylist since I'm interested in that, too.

To be honest, I'm having second thoughts about the fashion school thing...  I already told everyone in the universe I was going to Fashion Careers College, but how do I know what the best choice is?  I guess I just have to trust God to lead me in the right direction, and I'll keep pursuing both paths until I have my answer. 

Sunday, July 11, 2010

Screw eBay

I'm selling stuff on my blog.  Hopefully it works.

Here's an American Apparel skirt that I wore for half a day because it's waaaaay too small for me.  It's a size M/L (I know, their sizing is a joke.)  It looks even smaller on my mannequin though, because she's a skinny bitch and I had to pin it on her.  It fastens with Velcro on the side and is definitely short. Also it's pleated.  $20 including shipping.


Time for the newest installment of What's Ashley Doing at 5AM? Looking at pics of Chloe Sevigny. Duh.  She is fascinating.  After hours of fun and fucked up outfits, I Googled her and this beautiful picture came up.

Now, I'm not all into art and photography (I don't know shit about it; my sis does) but this is an arresting picture.  She looks like she's posing, but she also looks kind of shy and honest.  Her hair accidentally spills over her breasts, the lines of her hips are round, and her pubic hair makes her look womanly--otherwise the picture could be childlike and creepy.  It's too bad most people seem to disdain any and all pubic hair nowadays.  I'll definitely have to write more on that later...

PS: If you know about photography and art, you'll have to excuse me because I really don't know what the fuck I'm talking about and this photo just really struck me.

Saturday, July 10, 2010

FUZZBOX "Love Is The Slug"

Random video love.  Just heard of this band and I thought it was awesome--especially this video!

Friday, July 9, 2010


The weather in San Diego lately has been killing me.  Chilly, especially at night.  Big, fat gray clouds in the sky all day--not just a marine layer of fogginess.  That cold, hard half-light that gives you migraines and makes you squint even though it's not sunny...  I mean, why do I pay ridiculously high rent?  This is supposed to be paradise! 

So I haven't really been inspired--well, I'm kind of overwhelmed in a way.  There's so many choices of projects that I'm intimidated and I don't know where to start!  It's like I feel so much anxiety starting on a new garment that I end up not doing any garments.  I've basically been sitting on my ass since I got back from Vegas a week and a half ago.  Vegas was so much fun that I feel like I'm having "withdrawals" now. 

I've just been reading a lot and I finally finished Brave New World, which was kind of a disappointment.  It seemed like the progressive, God-less, pleasure-based society won out in the end.  I suppose it's meant to be an admonishment.  Huxley was right--we are headed toward that kind of society.  People have forgotten about God and about helping others instead of just themselves.  People have become so focused on material things like money and still they feel empty because they have failed to pursue something meaningful.  I feel the emptiness.  That's how I got addicted to Vicodin and Xanax; I tried to drown out the emptiness with them just like the people of Brave New World used soma.  I'm still searching for purpose and meaning in life.

Monday, July 5, 2010

Urban Outfitters turned me down. LAME. So the job search continues... I'm looking to work in retail. Too bad I can't go back to Forever 21--I ditched my last day of work.

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Is a hamster not entitled to the corms of his cheek?

ruffeoheartslilsnoty on Etsy

Ruffeoheartslilsnoty is a random seller I stumbled across on Etsy.  It's like stuff I would wear in my "nu-rave" phase.  Or like what MIA might wear to the grocery store.  Bright, comfy, sexy, cute.  Awesome.

Here's some of my faves:

It's pure amazingness!  Sharp construction, clashing colors, beautiful models...even the descriptions are entertaining.  They need to be famous and sell their shit on like Karmaloop or something.

Friday, July 2, 2010

Help Me!

I still don't have a f@#$%^&* job so ask me to make you something so I can sell it to you! [And I'm not Alexander McQueen, k? I didn't learn construction on Savile Row, you know.]